First off, I must say this post has been hugely inspired by NewBo's I remember everything. Its really sweet. And in spite of being inspired by the said post, it is somewhat of a salute to a past that is nothing more than a fond memory to me now.
Hmm...where do I begin.Okay ,I was 17 when my parents decided to send me to Moscow to get a medical degree. I was super excited of course. The mere prospect of finally being able to fulfill my ambition of becoming a doctor was enough to send me up on cloud 9. Of course getting to visit a new country was the icing on the cake. So,here I was.....super charged and insanely excited to be in Moscow. Med school was just as I had expected it to be,hectic.....nothing but hard work and sleepless nights spent cramming for exams. But,as I was about to soon find out,the exams would not be the only reason for my sleepless nights. Before I go further,I need to point out here that I had no idea I was gay. And Moscow was the last city in the world I expected to find love in. I mean,I was here to study and love was the last thing on my mind! And if anyone had even so much as suggested at that time that I would fall hard for a girl,I know I would have laughed in the persons face. But,as they say,love always strikes without warning! And dats exactly what happened to me. I was caught totally unawares with my guard down! I remember that day I first saw her! It was the 15th of April and we were all waiting to answer our Anatomy exams. She entered the hall a good 15mins late looking all flustered and lost. And the first thought that came to my mind was "God! My exam is gonna be a breeze cause I've just seen an angel" And u know what,it was indeed the a breeze. I didn't really think much about her that day cause as soon as I reached the hostel,I had to get down to prepare for my Biochemistry exams. Now,Biochem is one subject I've never grasped. I mean,how do u make sense of all the chemical reactions that are allegedly occurring inside minute organelles called mitochondria or Golgi bodies??? But that's a different subject altogether. So here I was all tense and almost chewing off my fingers in anticipation for the paper when she came and sat on the chair right next to mine! I don't really know how or why,but the minute I saw her,a sense of calm filled me and I knew,just knew,that the exam was gonna be okay! I must'
ve been staring cause she turned to look at me. She then gave me the sweetest smile I have ever seen and said "Hi! I am A. And you are?" Believe me,it took quite an effort to pronounce my name out to her........... not only did I have butterflies in my stomach,but I was getting all sweaty and nervous. The rest of the exam passed in a haze and so did all the other papers. We bumped into each other a lot that semester. We invariably sat int he same hall for almost all the papers and she was always a few chairs away from me. Soon,I was beginning to look forward to each exam with an added sense of excitation. I put extra effort into getting dressed for each paper and always tried to catch her eye. In a few months time we were good friends and went out to discs on Saturday nights-but always with friends. Being with her mad me a new person. i didn't recognise myself. I was more confident,funny without trying too hard and always happy. She filled me with a sense of elation. And I saw the same signs in her too-or was I imagining things? Anyways,things were getting really heated up for me,all I did was think of her all day. And I was not very sure about what I was feeling.I mean I had not given it much thought,but I always assumed that I was straight.And now all of a sudden I found myself consumed with her thoughts.My friends must've realised how I felt cause they kept pushing me to go talk to her,ask her out and frankly I was surprised at how causally they all accepted the fact that i was into women. Looked like I was the only one having trouble with acceptance. Anyways,it took some time to sink in but once I was at peace with it,there was really nothing more to do but ask her out which I finally did. And I believe it was a huge gamble cause I wasn't even sure she was into girls........
ve been staring cause she turned to look at me. She then gave me the sweetest smile I have ever seen and said "Hi! I am A. And you are?" Believe me,it took quite an effort to pronounce my name out to her........... not only did I have butterflies in my stomach,but I was getting all sweaty and nervous. The rest of the exam passed in a haze and so did all the other papers. We bumped into each other a lot that semester. We invariably sat int he same hall for almost all the papers and she was always a few chairs away from me. Soon,I was beginning to look forward to each exam with an added sense of excitation. I put extra effort into getting dressed for each paper and always tried to catch her eye. In a few months time we were good friends and went out to discs on Saturday nights-but always with friends. Being with her mad me a new person. i didn't recognise myself. I was more confident,funny without trying too hard and always happy. She filled me with a sense of elation. And I saw the same signs in her too-or was I imagining things? Anyways,things were getting really heated up for me,all I did was think of her all day. And I was not very sure about what I was feeling.I mean I had not given it much thought,but I always assumed that I was straight.And now all of a sudden I found myself consumed with her thoughts.My friends must've realised how I felt cause they kept pushing me to go talk to her,ask her out and frankly I was surprised at how causally they all accepted the fact that i was into women. Looked like I was the only one having trouble with acceptance. Anyways,it took some time to sink in but once I was at peace with it,there was really nothing more to do but ask her out which I finally did. And I believe it was a huge gamble cause I wasn't even sure she was into girls........
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